Might try Wicca.
Then I’ll have to change my blog name to MugglebornWitch. Or something.
Allah wouldn’t keep allowing bad shit to happen.
But bad shit happens.
Which makes me wonder…
If there is a single higher power at all.
I think I’m going to start trying to do the marriage thing again.
I should have just married Adam when I had the chance. But I’m not even going to go back to that. And I miss AB, but I prefer someone older : /
I would like someone older who already has their life established and a job and looking for someone to complete their life and have kids.
I don’t want kids or a husband.
I want to spend my life as an adult gymnast firewoman with a kickass wife and two furbabies.
But I can’t sit around waiting for that to happen.
I might as well just get married to some nice Muslim dude and have kids and become a good Muslim wife or whatever.
So yay me. I’m on the prowl again. ugh.
Every thing, it would seem.
I just saw an anon go on someone’s page who is suicidal just to tell them they do not like them. Was it really necessary? Do you feel nice about yourself? I don’t get it.
It’s unfair because so many people are hurting in side, and it takes so much energy just to wake up and and be an active participant in your own life, just for people to shoot you down for no apparent reason.
And how do we make it ok so that we can wake up the next morning? We tend to tell ourselves that there’s Karma, that that person will get what they deserve sooner or later. Or we tell ourselves that there is a god and that in the after-life, god will punish them for being so awful.
But you want to now something funny? Karma seems like bullshit to me. Because I know a lot of rude, mean and nasty people that are having the time of their fucking lives! Ha! And you want to know what’s even funnier!? There are people that are sweet, giving, caring amongst other things that do nothing but suffer their entire lives. They are unhappy, depressed, suicidal, self-harming, etc. and you mean to tell me that KARMA is somehow real?
Sorry. I call bullshit.
And this whole religion thing. What even is that? I am a Muslim, barely clinging on to my faith. But it gets to me that if I am cutting and depressed and negative from a life I didn’t choose to have, I can be sent to hell. The same hell that someone who is rude and nasty can be sent to. What the hell is that?
I hate to sound so angry, but I really am.
I did not choose to be born into this family.
I did not choose for my mum to marry her husband.
I did not choose to him to do the things he did.
I did not choose to be gay.
I did not choose to be so screwed up emotionally and mentally.
But because I can’t magically bounce back and become some sort of positivity machine, I can go to hell?
That’s a load of crap.
I am not trying to play the magical victim card, but if you’re going to deal someone a shitty lot in life, they should have a ‘get out of hell free’ card too.
I feel like this whole world we’ve created for ourselves as humans is just so completely false.
Karma? It really doesn’t seem to exist. What about all those countries that are harming other countries or their own people? Why aren’t leaders growing a foot out the side of their head or something?
And religion? HA. I’m starting to really have some issues with faith and god. I just can’t. I’ve been going through this for almost a decade, with no relief. And I’m not the nicest person in the world. I am sarcastic, negative and I distance myself away from people. But I do help others (why just the other day, a man passed out in the store, and I got on my first responder duties right away) and I am a good person. Yet I have all these problems and I learn that I STILL won’t get relief from them if I die. Thanks, but no thanks.
Atheists, you make good points.
Who knows, maybe I’ll be an atheist or maybe practice Wicca in the coming year.
Who really knows.
The Husband is violent, yelling, doesn’t speak English and refuses to allow his wife medical treatment without praying.
Their idea of “praying” is making salaat. Excuse me, but since when do people pray salaat in place of du’aa? Umm, we don’t just pray salaat all day, guys. We pray 5 times a day. The other times are just basic prayers…And we wouldn’t let our family die instead of getting treatment either…especially if their spleen is rupturing.
And yelling at the doctor and nurses every time they touch his wife? Some Muslim women have male OB/GYN’s…
And really, praying in the middle of the ER? There’s no private rooms for the public to use for religious purposes…in a hospital? Orlly.
Good job HawthoRNe. Good job.
I remember now why the topic came up. I saw my Islamic school teacher driving in another lane and my mum mentioned (as a joke) that I must know her because she was wearing a Hijab (implying all Muslims know each other) and I saw the person and was like “Oh, that’s Sister ____! She was one of the Islamic school teachers for my age group!”
I wish The Fiks still had free Arabic videos.
Been Muslim for 5 years and haven’t been to a single Eid prayer. What is this the 9th Eid since I’ve been Muslim?
It’s to the point that I don’t even want to go to any Eid prayer or celebration this year.